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I usually don't really care when people at school say it's not going so great, but this time is different. I didn't choose to miss 4 weeks of school, I didn't choose not to be in class and not to be with my friends. I didn't choose to get this dissease, but I do have it and there's nothing I can do about it. Still i'm the one who's punished for everything this dissease caused.
I already lost 1 whole year, why does it have to happen again? It caused me so much pain, it made me miss my friends. Some people might think: 'Okay... you got it so what... try to live with it!' I say: 'FUCK OFF'
Do you think it's easy when your life used to be so perfect.... then suddenly you lose control and things get all messed up. It's hard to get things back on track... and when everything's settled down, it strikes again. Now I have to start all over again.
I hate it so much, I can't live with it. People can't see it. I put on a mask everytime I walk out my door. When I act like i'm normal, I feel normal and my life becomes normal. But when i'm sick I can't act like i'm normal, because I can't do normal things. I hate it.
It makes me lack motivation. The dissease is going to screw it up anyway.... but I don't want to give up.
Going to clean my room now so I can make my homework (OMG XD)
Ps. I changed the font from Georgia to Arial... wich one do you like better?
